Category: Ramblings

  •  L’Amour, Les Baguettes, Paris

     L’Amour, Les Baguettes, Paris

    I know I promised to write more, but life gets in the way of writing frequently. Though the hands and mind itch to write, hours blend into days, and soon, a week has gone by.

    As promised, I am continuing with freewriting, because I think this is what I do best. Please, have a seat.

    If you watch the TV series, “Emily in Paris,” you would know that people have mixed opinions about the TV series. Myself included. However, I love watching it mostly because I think it has a good mix of English and French. I’ve always loved reading about France and Paris, and I was close to visiting the country once upon a time. The urge to visit is simply stronger this year.

    I’ve been content to read novels of Paris and still hope that one day I can visit.

    In the meantime, I heard this song while working at a cafe, and I’ve been obsessed with it ever since. The first time I heard it, Shazam (music recognition) was not able to “listen” properly. Until I went to the cafe a third time. I simply fell in love with the song. I’ve been playing it daily as a mood booster.

    I told Mr. S that this song reminds me so much of the Tinker Bell movie – the first one. I don’t know which particular song sounds like this. Perhaps it is simply the whimsical nature of the song, or something. Regardless, it’s been on my playlist now.

    While I listen to all kinds of music, I think I’m on this path of finding songs that are similar to “L’amour, Les Baguettes, Paris” by Stella Jang. If you have any suggestions, please let me know.

    And that’s it for today.

    I wonder if there are Asian Lit books that feature moving to France. LOL

  • Freewriting challenges

    Freewriting challenges

    In an effort to encourage Little Miss to exercise her writing muscles, I have shared some freewriting prompts for her to use.

    Unfortunately, the idea of freewriting and blogging is lost on her. She is nervous, hesitant, perhaps a tad bit anxious to bleed on the page – perhaps thinking that she would be criticized heavily. I promised to be kinder and less critical of what she writes. To prove this, I will also join the challenge so that my writing muscles are also stretched.

    It has been too long since I wrote anything of substance.

    In true freewriting and blogging form, I shall simply jot down what comes out of my stream of consciousness nary a concern for style, grammar, or form. Just a reminder,

    Freewriting is a technique in which the author writes their thoughts quickly and continuously, without worrying about form, style, or even grammar. Alongside brainstorming, freewriting is typically used early in the writing process to collect and manifest one’s thoughts.

    I figured that since nobody reads my blog anyway, this is just a good place for me to do brain dumps – as usual. 😉

    Hope you stick around.

  • Another Revamp?

    I think the problem with my writing is that I often look for images that need to go with a post. Sometimes, its the reverse: I look for words that go with the photo.

    I have this space for the longest time, and I have neglected it so I must really start using it… or get rid of it, so we’re going to have another revamp. Besides, it seems that writing has been slowly drifting away from me. I fear that my talent may be taken away from me if I do not write something.

    Perhaps I will not necessarily have a revamp of the website, but just keep writing things because I know that nobody visits this blog anyway… save for a few people who come to check.

    I’ve decided to also share my world.

    Having a lifestyle blog without actually sharing my world seems a little counter productive. For far too long I have just kept quiet, so now I will start doing things again. 😉

    While you’re here, you might as well visit my other websites or links on the side panel. Please?

    Thank you!

  • Reading and the Universe

    Reading and the Universe

    Someone I recently befriended told me that I flex about reading.

    I … I think I don’t.

    I talk about reading as if it is as normal as breathing. Every now and then, I am still shocked when people do not read. I still get surprised when I find out that the people I actually like are not readers.

    Then I remember that of course, maybe not everybody is into reading as I am.

    Now, some people who claim they love reading often peak my curiosity as I am only eager to discuss about books. Same situation applies to that said “new friend” who shared that he reads. To which I said, “yeah? Like what books?”

    That was not a flex. That was me asking what books the person liked. He then felt like I was showing off how many books I have read… I was not. I was just happy to know someone else read. I cannot help it if I read that many books.

    But then again, perhaps some people do find it intimidating – he said so as well.

    Reading the Universe

    I simple like to read. Perhaps I do not read as much as I used to, but I do find comfort in books. Books make me happy.

    Reading unlocks a whole lot of information in the world that makes sense to me.

    I simply find it enjoyable.

    To that sentiment, he also said I was flexing.

    eh.

  • Curious Cats

    In a world where there are so many observers, watchers.. *stalkers*, where would you categorize yourself?

    I … am… a ninja!

    But in terms of popularity, I classify myself as fairly unknown. Where nobody bothers to Google me, look for me, stalk me, or even try to find every social media that I own. Except, there are some who still keep coming back. Waiting to see if I posted something new.

    So here’s a quick post for my faithful guests (maybe 1 or 2 of you), who never fail to visit. 🙂

    Life Updates:

    • so many changes have taken place in September – life changing!
    • so many things coming soon – life changing!
    • planning, planning, planning things to come – life changing!

    You get it, right?

    Life changing things happened and are coming even more.

    I hope you stick around so I have some readers.

    Daily Blog Updates

    I have decided to blog daily — yes, maybe. Because I have not been blogging or writing a lot and my creative juices need to be rekindled. So, this will restart being the dumping grounds of what is in my mind. I need to stretch the creative muscles so that I have more ideas.

    Also, so that my brain gets preoccupied by things that are not ideal.

    I am talking about YOU.

  • New Year, New Thoughts

    New Year, New Thoughts

    Here’s an update, it is the new year, and I am not really going to say that its going to be a “New Me.” There is no “New Me.” There is only me, myself, and I. And what we can expect this year is more on self improvement or growing this same old version of myself.

    Do you feel the need to reinvent yourself? Do you often feel like you have to change?

    What if I told you that you don’t necessarily need to “change” rather just take it day by day and improve the things that you want to improve.

    We’re so caught up in this world of expectations that we forget the realities that we are blessed with. For instance, we have expectations brought about by peer pressure, family pressure, parental expectations.. and worse of all, self-expectations. But when do we learn to give ourselves a break? When do we get to pat ourselves in the back and say, its been good. You’re doing great!

    I say, let 2022 be the year you start giving yourself a break. Start being kinder to yourself, and stop expecting people to go hard on you — just because you are hard on yourself.

    Unfurl the tarpaulins and let the sign say “2022: Kinder YOU; Kinder ME!” Or something like that. Yeah?

    Back on the work horse

    Today, I sit in an almost empty room, hearing the rumble of an old air conditioning unit. Outside, the walls of the buildings reflect the heat and helps drive brightness into my eyes. I could move, I really could. But I am lazy to do so.

    Besides, moving entails that I move my monitor, mega mousepad, and laptop to another place in the room. I simply do not have time or the energy to do that.

    I’ve come to the office today to work, and get some stuff down. I would like to try to do more work this time around than just play Rise of Kingdoms. In the olden days (okay, in 2019 to 2021), I used to journal in an attempt to share my world with you. However, I realized that nobody actually reads my blog, so now I feel a sense of freedom to just ramble on and write about anything about everything.

    There are a couple of drafts that I still need to review and post, but no rush.

    We’re running low on energy today, sick as a dog, and so on. I guess the trip over the holidays has given me some weird bug that somehow becomes more severe as the day wears on. Not only I am affected by this but also the hubby and the little kid.

    General anxiety

    I cannot help but feel a sense of general anxiety or fear for 2022. So many things have happened over the course of the last 2 years that I cannot help but wonder what this year brings.

    However, as what the husband said, 2021 was not all that bad, actually. It could have been worse, but we came out of it strong and in control. So let us hope that it continues to do so for 2022. Challenges are always coming out, but I can only hope to be stronger and more courageous to face the things that are coming my way.

    Lets see how this year goes.

    Oh, and Happy New Year to you!

  • 2021 Round Up

    2021 Round Up

    So, I did call 2021 a year about a month ago… and then I vanished, right? Well, here I am, stopping by to wrap up 2021. What a year it was!

    This post started with the intro, all peppy and hopeful, but it quickly changed into something dark and menacing. So, I’ve mentally paused and mindfully pulling myself out of the rabbit hole.

    The rabbit hole is something we will discuss at some point, when I have managed to arrange things a bit. Let’s look towards more rainbows and sunshine, shall we?

    Here’s some good things that happened in 2021, month by month:

    • January – Left a job for a job that I felt was better for my “situation”.
    • February – Went to the beach and managed to drive for an hour. Car driving achievement unlocked in 2020, but car driving with U-turns and crossing bridges was unlocked this year.
    • March – I baked cookies for the first time. Yep. I finally put that oven to good use.
    • April – Baked brownies… I don’t recall much of anything else.
    • May – This is a blur. I cannot recall much. You see, lock down started in February.
    • June – Sanya’s birthday.
    • July – My birthday, and I learned to use a French Press. I basically leveled up my coffee game.
    • August – What happened here..? Oh, new strides for Little Boxes!
    • September – More improvement for Little Boxes, and gained more clients.
    • October – Went to the beach with a friend, and took a jump to finally start another business.
    • November – Creative BuKo went LIVE! AND I started reading a LOT more than the previous months.
    • December – Christmas is always a good thing.

    Okay, so maybe it was not that eventful. I think I need to start journalling so I do not miss any events that would be memorable.

    How was your 2021?

  • Let’s Call it a Year

    Let’s Call it a Year

    Mon, Nov 29. We are at the close of November, and I have decided to call it a year. December will just be a floating period of time, where we take a look at the past and plan for the future.

    I learned to “call it a year” from a friend who basically gave up on 2021, albeit a little bit earlier than I. 2021 has been trying, though in some ways better than 2020, but it is also worse in some ways than 2020.

    I am not excited about 2022 at this point, I just want to relax in December.

    So far, it has been a series of days and months dragging on the floor, fighting the urge to go into the rabbit hole. Fighting to keep one’s head above water should be an Olympic sport that most of us have found ourselves playing, with almost zero experience. I say almost zero, because I seem to find myself in these situations, but still managing to return. I am nowhere close to being an expert at surviving.

    Perhaps we need to keep fighting. Always keep fighting.

    But perhaps, in some instances, it is also okay to take a break.

    And this is me, taking a break.

    I shall sit down on a bench and stare at the world. It does not have to be at the beach – because that is impossible right now – but whatever I can, I will.

    In the great scheme of things, we have but one body, mind, and soul. Unless you decide to sell your soul and others inhabit it…. that’s different…? But we should be able to stop for a while.

    Feel the breeze, close your eyes, and let things be.

    How has your year been so far?

  • Chaos! Mayhem! Aja!

    It is 1:51 p.m., and I start to write here of all places, when I have a 3:00 p.m. deadline. I hate deadlines. All I really want to do is sit at the beach, feel the sand between my toes, and relax — and get paid for it. Because, why not?

    In the middle of a hair pulling episode, I am taking a step back to just breathe. It is chaotic out there. Indeed.

    In the great scheme of things, so many ideas are popping in and out of my head on a daily basis — so much that my dreams involve Dashboard reports, numbers scaling high. And then waking to a reality that is far from the truth.

    Reality currently looks like a sink full of dishes and pots to clean, a laundry basket that is ye high, and clutter everywhere. Toys, lots of toys and mini cars that have caused my untimely fall more than once, and boxes. Yes, littles and their interest in boxes makes me want to cry.

    Please, please… please don’t tell me I am awesome and I am a mom. I can do it.

    I know I can.

    🙂 I know…

    But it isn’t always perfectly lined boxes and clean floors. It takes a lot of effort to maintain everything. As what my friend Paulie once said, “your energy is spread out.” Indeed, my energy is spread out like paint splatters on walls that simply refuse to come off.

    Bah! Another thing to clean up.

    Amidst Peppa Pig’s voice in the background, I suppose this is the way for me to zone out for a while and write what my brain wants to write. To breathe and let the brain do the work for a while on something creative.

    Which reminds me, we have something in the works. Do stay tuned. 😉

  • Sitting in Silence

    Sitting in Silence

    Have you ever just sat in silence and stared at the world?

    I do that frequently. Living in the big city can sometimes drive an island a little bit crazy with all the noise. That is why I sit and stare… a few minutes a day.

    Today, the Cambodians celebrate the Queen Mother’s birthday. If we were at our previous location, we could easily walk to the riverside and watch the fireworks display. If this was pre-COVID time, there would actually be people gathering.

    But this is not that time.

    My neighbors, however, are feeling celebratory. The Cambodians certainly love to drink. Any reason to drink, they will drink. Reminds me sometimes of Filipinos, too. But Filipinos drink to be merry and chill. Cambodians seem to drink to drown — to forget their woes.

    This Filipino can drink on her own. In silence. Pondering and musing about life and existence. This Filipino doesn’t need a crew to drink.

    Lets sit in silence, beer or gin. Whatever. Choose your poison.

    Happy Friday.